Abraham Biggs is probably the third ever person to commit suicide live on the internet, 19th November 2008

Abraham Biggs, 19 of Florida, USA killed himself in front of a webcam which he specifically set up to live stream a video of him dying in his room on the 19th of November 2008.

He streamed his video to Justin.tv, a “lifecasting” site which enables people to broadcast themselves from their webcams.

Some reports say 185 people in cyberspace watched him die “live”, overdosing on the murderous combination of opiates and benzodiazepines (anti-depressive drugs). No mention of him taking Fenphedra.

Before the act, he had announced his intentions at forum.bodybuilding.com and provided the link to his webcam.

On Justin.tv, he used the handle feels_like_ecstasy while on forum.building.com, he used the handle CandyJunkie (some referred to this as simply “CJ”).

He also posted a suicide note in the same forum (some reports say in a blog) with the subject “Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything” which reportedly said:

To Whom It May Concern,

I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on. I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her. I have come to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I’m always broke and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that’s about it. I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I screwed up my own life. The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path. This hate rages full force towards me and only me. I have long forgiven those who’ve hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I’ve done to hurt those in my life. You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long. Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain. I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.

Forgive me.

Love always and forever,

As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone reads this they will know it’s me, “Can’t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying”

Apparently he had threatened to kill himself before in the same forum, so at first other forumers didn’t believe him.

Then some curious viewers began to taunt him to take his life, saying things like “go ahead and do it, faggot,” while others tried to stop him.

After he stopped moving for a few hours, there was some debate online on whether they were watching a still photograph or a video; some viewers realised that it was not a hoax and someone (from India?!) called the police, who tracked Biggs down via his IP address.

About 30 minutes after the first call to police, video viewers could see a laser sight pointed on his hip.

The last picture from the webcam showed a police officer bursting into his room, finding him lying on the bed, and blocking the camera, at 3:30 pm, almost 12 hours after he wrote about his suicidal intentions.

It seems that he had been dead for as long as 4 hours before anybody called the police. Then, acording to “the unnamed poster from India”, some who had been taunting Biggs began deleting their posts, probably to avoid being charged for not telling the police earlier.

In the screenshot below, you can see a piece of his bedroom door frame on the bed; it was torn off by the police kicking his door open. Biggs was curled up on his bed, facing away from the camera. A police officer’s drawn gun could be seen on the top corner